its all lost...........

i am so lost and i think the person i care about the most regrets meeting me. like always things always go wrong. maybe so people are made to be single. if this relationship dont work i am going to join the national guard. i am bein dead serious. if all i have is my mom and dad cause ino once i get out of highschool i will lose all my friends. my dad kinda likes the idea but he want to me to join the air force. i do want to fly but i cant cause i wear contacts grr. so ya maybe its the wright choise and if its not o well i dont have a better way to waste time.

omg

i have a big problem. today at formal i danced with caroline and of course i fell for her. and the sad part is she cant date me. but on the brighter side we kissed. not to long cause people have to saay stuff. but i wish it would happen again.but it wont. i dont know what to think i am just freakn lost and icant help it. i cant help it to see the one i love more then any thing walk away from me. love is so hard and complicated but in the end it always pays off. i wish i could just settle down with her grrrrr. i think i am in love so i guess thats a good thing. :D

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ok so blah blah blah grrrr this day was crazy. i am so confused on where my life is taken me. i dont know what i am going to do. i feel like i am so lost. i want to date her i am afraid to get close to anyone cause every time i do they leave me hangn in the dark. korn has been my band of the week or prob the rest of this month i love them so freakn much.